Getting going again.....finally!

Hello and welcome back!

I am breaking the drought...it's my birthday today and for some reason i feel inclined to break the ice of the long overdue blog posting.

What to say, where to start?!! My first birthday in New Zealand is today, believe it or not since i have been in this country for pretty much two years now. Anyway, so, twenty eight Earth years in this physical body, apparently... nope, i don't feel any different. Actually i feel different than i have done for the last few days. But that's because for the last few days, if not longer, i have been on a fierce self critical questionning analysis negative spiralling thought/feeling pattern. Which sucked. Why? A few reasons...wondering what I am really doing what have i really achieved these last two years since i left England, whether i really can handle being in a relationship, whether i am progressing in any way or doing enough productive helpful stuff. etc etc i won't linger too long on that one.

Makes a change though for one of my blogs to not be ecstatically joyful i suppose, perhaps you would like some more just to remind you that it's not just a fairytale world i am living in, it has its waves just like everybody's world does.

Recently i have been introduced to the existence of Robert Anton Wilson. Anyone interested in philosophy, society, the meaning of life, metaphysics, pontifications...be sure to investigate this man. One of the strongest messages i have taken on board from him so far is the notion (or rather a reminder of the notion) that all perception is metaphor...nothing is really real, everything is subjective...we all live in 'reality tunnels' which fit whatever we want/need for the moment and we would all be well advised to routinely and systematically delete our beliefs and change our perspectives.

Well anyway this guy is a lot better at explaining himself than i am at explaining why he is such a profound voice in my life right now. I have just done a little bit of research to find a few quotes from him...

"I have never experienced another human being. I have experienced my impressions of them."

“. . . there are periods of history when the visions of madmen and dope fiends are a better guide to reality than the common-sense interpretation of data available to the so-called normal mind. This is one such period, if you haven't noticed already.”

“Every fact of science was once Damned. Every invention was considered impossible. Every discovery was a nervous shock to some orthodoxy. Every artistic innovation was denounced as fraud and folly. The entire web of culture and "progress," everything on earth that is man-made and not given to us by nature, is the concrete manifestation of some man's refusal to bow to Authority. We would own no more, know no more, and be no more than the first apelike hominids if it were not for the rebellious, the recalcitrant, and the intransigent. As Oscar Wilde truly said, "Disobedience was man's Original Virtue."

Anyway it has been a lovely day. Awoke to sun beaming in the windeow...winter sunbathing in bed! Followed by a few hours walking through native bush and a very cold dip in a stream, then an afternoon collecting flowers and pretty things from the garden and playing at being a florist whilst drinking Jack Daniels and wearing the most gorgeous new red possum fur fingerless gloves. Thanks to Pete and Kathy and Bruce for their parts to play in these lovely times.

My birthday wishes....

- to receive emails from my dearest friends telliung me about their thoughts, feelings and ideas on life, love and beyond

- the miraculous appearance of Burning Man funds

miaow xxx